Dearest You,
Wow! The 3rd letter has come. Nakakarami ka na! Where are mine? I'm running out of words. HAHA (Oh no! What if you're not Filipino? Use google translator please. LOL)
So last year's letter came awfully late which I got to writing in October. 2012's letter on Valentines eve, and this letter just a few days after, since on February 14, 2014 I spent the best Valentines day to date, witnessing one of my best friend's wedding.
Honestly though it was my first valentines with no flowers other than the maid of honor bouquet, no chocolates other than the Bobot in their sweets corner during the reception, no cake except the wedding cake, I in all honesty felt so loved and in love that day. I felt the love that was shared not only by the couple but the family and friends that were there to witness it; most specially the love of God displayed on that glorious day.
Being so hands on in a wedding prior, during, and post wedding day left me thinking how much planning, time, effort, money, and energy it takes to orchestrate such a wonderful day. Makes me think twice before I say yes to you someday. HAHA! I am kidding. Geri (my friend who got married) once told me "Ressa, I think you will get married before me. Seeing how you are now and the way the Lord has prepared you, you are more ready than me."
That's when I realized that no matter how prepared I may seem to be by the human eye, only the Lord knows the preparedness of my heart and character. He knows the real deal. He is the only one who can see what we can't. He is the only one who knows when, how, where and with who it's going to happen for us. He knows me and you more than we even know ourselves. He understands us for He created us. He knows our heart's greatest desires, needs, longings, fears. He knows this, for He created us and we are His before we become each other's.
It is timely how yesterday during the Sunday service, Kuya Archie preached using the love story of Ruth and Boaz. Not many know this but the love story of Boaz and Ruth has been my favorite love story since last year. I was reminded that our relationship with God should be of utmost priority and that our convictions stem from our depth of relationship with Him. That my character is my compass that will lead me to my Boaz. I already knew this in the past years of walking with Christ that it will be my faith, convictions, and character that will lead me to you someday. It will be those exact same things that will attract me to you when that time comes. All I need is to wait. Not on you but on our Heavenly Father who knows us best.
You know there have been times when I questioned God. I questioned him a lot. Quite recently actually during last week's Sunday service. Not just about my lovelife but a lot of things. Family, career, dreams, disappointments. But if there is one thing I can't ever question is His love. I know He loves me immensely. That alone is enough for me to trust and put my faith in Him alone for things to happen the way they should be even when I can't understand.
I pray that even in this season of singleness, when and if you ever come to a point when you ask the Lord probably the same questions I've asked myself, that you remember His love for you too. The love that caused Him to send his only son Jesus to live a life and die a death for you and me. All of this because He loved us so much to have us eternally separated from Him. If He could do that, then is there anything in His power that He is not able to do for you and me
now?
I pray that the Lord draws you even more closer to Him in this season of waiting. I pray that you understand that this season is not a desperate or fruitless one but an intentional and very purposeful one. His grace for us and for that, I am extremely grateful.
To my Boaz, I leave you with what the Lord has revealed to me in Scripture and confirmed through Godly counsel these past days even after Valentines.
"God is not human, that he should lie,not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? I have received a command to bless; he has blessed, and I cannot change it." Numbers 23:19-20
Love,
Ruth este Ressa :)
P.S. You probably had a hard time dealing with all the love songs during Valentines but this one speaks volumes. Plus it's from me so I'd appreciate you listening to it. Happy Valentines!
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